Saturday, August 05, 2006
alone together...
It's been a somewhat-decent Saturday. I finished the paper route by about noon before it got too hot. I didn't get paid (again) but I'm used to never have any money, regardless if I get paid or not. I'm also used to spending most of the day alone, since that's pretty much my day anyway.
It does bother me to be alone sometimes, but not as much as it used to - it's funny how you get used to things when you don't have a choice. I've been working alone for almost three years now and my days are spent with mostly my thoughts for company.
Sure, I get people coming into the office now and then, but they're not there to talk to me, just to take care of business and then there gone. Sometimes I think it'll be hard if I'm ever put back around people. The other day, Norma was in the office doing her ad work and having there was a distraction. I'm not sure it was because she was there, or because she has a very hard time getting herself organized so it's like watching a Chinese fire drill (or actually, a Mexican version).
It should be a good day tomorrow though, my niece is visiting - staying for a week - and it'll be her birthday on Monday (she'll be 6!) and while I'll most likely be losing my quiet mornings, it is nice to have her here. She's a very loving, considerate person (even when she is throwing a tantrum, but that's not often). I feel bad because I won't have any money to get her a gift, but I've decided to giver her my Gromit mug. I got it some time ago, but all it's done is sit in the cupboard - I'm sure she'll enjoy it, and who knows? Maybe when she grows up it'll be one of her cherished memories from childhood...or she might break it next week - ya never know.
I'll probably go off to the movies alone too. As I've said before, I see a lot of other people going there alone and I used to feel sorry for them until I thought to myself that perhaps they were escaping their existence, if only for a couple of hours. Maybe it's their only chance to be alone, so, who knows? My studies have allowed me to think freely and consider other options.
In other news, my darts league is enjoying a brief hiatus until next season starts in September. I must admit, it's really taken off and while it's a challenge, for the first time ever since the league's inception, I feel as if everyone's on the same page and wants what's best. They still have their disagreements, they'll all do the right thing. Yes, sometimes I feel like I'm having to babysit grown men, but other times I'm really proud of what I've accomplished, of what we've accomplished.
Now, if I could only play as well I'd be happy. My game isn't what it used to be, but it'll pick up once I get some practice. I ordered a new set the other day, but I was sent the wrong kind so I had to send it back. It took only three days to get here, two to return (I put a delivery confirmation on it) but I haven't received anything yet. Oh, well.
I think what I'll do tomorrow is try to figure this site out - haven't really had time to look at it. When I started it back in January, it had some comments options which I think I turned off (I didn't want strangers posting, if memory serves). I need to find how to turn them back on. Either way, I really like this blog. It looks professional. I'll also see if there's a way I can add pics.
One more thing - I feel bad that after all this time, I still haven't had a chance to use my 20mm lens, mostly because it's been too hot outside - heat is not a friend to film - and the humidity is really oppressive. I think if it was just hot, it wouldn't be so bad, but you go out there and it's an effort just to breathe! Anyway, I might do that if I don't go to the movies tomorrow.
We'll see. ¶ 11:27 PM
It does bother me to be alone sometimes, but not as much as it used to - it's funny how you get used to things when you don't have a choice. I've been working alone for almost three years now and my days are spent with mostly my thoughts for company.
Sure, I get people coming into the office now and then, but they're not there to talk to me, just to take care of business and then there gone. Sometimes I think it'll be hard if I'm ever put back around people. The other day, Norma was in the office doing her ad work and having there was a distraction. I'm not sure it was because she was there, or because she has a very hard time getting herself organized so it's like watching a Chinese fire drill (or actually, a Mexican version).
It should be a good day tomorrow though, my niece is visiting - staying for a week - and it'll be her birthday on Monday (she'll be 6!) and while I'll most likely be losing my quiet mornings, it is nice to have her here. She's a very loving, considerate person (even when she is throwing a tantrum, but that's not often). I feel bad because I won't have any money to get her a gift, but I've decided to giver her my Gromit mug. I got it some time ago, but all it's done is sit in the cupboard - I'm sure she'll enjoy it, and who knows? Maybe when she grows up it'll be one of her cherished memories from childhood...or she might break it next week - ya never know.
I'll probably go off to the movies alone too. As I've said before, I see a lot of other people going there alone and I used to feel sorry for them until I thought to myself that perhaps they were escaping their existence, if only for a couple of hours. Maybe it's their only chance to be alone, so, who knows? My studies have allowed me to think freely and consider other options.
In other news, my darts league is enjoying a brief hiatus until next season starts in September. I must admit, it's really taken off and while it's a challenge, for the first time ever since the league's inception, I feel as if everyone's on the same page and wants what's best. They still have their disagreements, they'll all do the right thing. Yes, sometimes I feel like I'm having to babysit grown men, but other times I'm really proud of what I've accomplished, of what we've accomplished.
Now, if I could only play as well I'd be happy. My game isn't what it used to be, but it'll pick up once I get some practice. I ordered a new set the other day, but I was sent the wrong kind so I had to send it back. It took only three days to get here, two to return (I put a delivery confirmation on it) but I haven't received anything yet. Oh, well.
I think what I'll do tomorrow is try to figure this site out - haven't really had time to look at it. When I started it back in January, it had some comments options which I think I turned off (I didn't want strangers posting, if memory serves). I need to find how to turn them back on. Either way, I really like this blog. It looks professional. I'll also see if there's a way I can add pics.
One more thing - I feel bad that after all this time, I still haven't had a chance to use my 20mm lens, mostly because it's been too hot outside - heat is not a friend to film - and the humidity is really oppressive. I think if it was just hot, it wouldn't be so bad, but you go out there and it's an effort just to breathe! Anyway, I might do that if I don't go to the movies tomorrow.
We'll see. ¶ 11:27 PM
